I’ve really been taking my time writing this follow-up post. There is a lot changing for me, not only in the way I am personally engaging my spirituality and path, but how I am relating to other. Lots of wonderful movement is occurring, and my biggest lesson is stepping back and allowing the changes to take place. I think too often I get in my own way, I feel that I “have to do”, rather than just hold presence. Taking the trip to South Carolina opened me up to a lot of things that I needed to see. I won’t be sharing all of the changes here, as those are meant just for me. My journal is now my constant companion, as is a mala (I take different ones out depending on the day, my mood, and which one calls to me from my altar).
I had the opportunity to sit with my past in interesting ways. I found a stack of my old journals. Many of them leading up to my transition to DC, and I even found one that I kept for my first year in the Navy. Seeing my personal transformation through these texts really brought me into a deep place of gratitude for where I am, and all the beautiful trials and tribulations along the way. Getting to be with family helped me to root, to ground, and to just be me for a bit. I didn’t have to be a teacher, a student, a psychic, a healer, and sometimes when we have the opportunity to step out of our roles we shake the wrinkles out–then we put our multicolored coats on once again.
Now that I am back into my routine, I am getting to live a lot of the changes that I experienced on my Pilgrimage. I am in the process of de-cluttering my life on many levels (internally and externally). I am looking at where I am and where I am going a bit differently, and am allowing the changes to take place through a place of deep and unconditional trust. I am reconnecting to part of my path that are calling to me, and am being kind to myself a bit more.
Spiritual transformation takes many forms, and sometimes we have to step into and out of our lives to gain perspective. One of the things I did when I went to on my trip was to ask the universe to give me clear signs as to the changes I needed to make… and so my perception opened, and I listened deeply.
I’m going to be writing a series of articles relating my processes moving forward and reflections on the deeper changes that are taking place. Fasting, writing, loving, being, meditating, yoga, silence and a bit of solitude are now part of my experience. My processes are mine, but it is my hope that we can share, learn from one another, and grow through the beauty of our shared experience.
What changes are you making, and what is changing you?
When you venture into a retreat, take a pilgrimage, or attend an event–how do you integrate what you bring back from the experience into your life?
You are Loved. You are Beautiful. You are Divine.
Michael A Brazell